However, Matt still can’t help but smile painfully when he realizes that Foggy feels something for him, enough to care about him. It hurts though, knowing he’ll never be enough to righteously earn all this care. It’s like he’s committing a crime, taking something that isn’t his, something that will never be his.
啧,真自卑啊
Oh, Foggy doesn’t seem to believe it at all, “You’re not a saint , Murdock, what– You’re going to suddenly go out of your way to stop doing something you swore you had to do, just because you fucked up your entire life?” he scoffs, almost dramatically, but his heartbeat doesn't trip once.
Foggy’s honest, “I told you, I warned you that night , but you insisted, Matt. You tore Nelson & Murdock apart because of your irresponsibility in keeping your two lives separated,” he spits. Ouch.
Usually, when they have arguments, Foggy lies, it’s never the whole truth when he’s mad at Matt. But this time, complete honesty, nothing less. Foggy drops the bag of doughnuts on the table, and whispers a quiet ‘goodbye’, knowing Matt can hear it all too well.
And he leaves.
这一篇雾夜都是天主教徒AU
Foggy的POV来写的,设定他是gay,第一次见面就说出了“你真火辣”这样的话(这倒是电视剧原剧情,一直没搞清是不是编剧在queerbaiting)
马律师惊讶了一下,然后友好礼貌地微笑,同意两个人一起去喝咖啡,暂时完全不知道他内心的想法
“You don’t want any of the stuff healthy BDSM relationships are supposed to have, do you?” Foggy asks eventually. “You don’t want safewords or negotiation or any of the stuff designed to keep people safe?”
Mustn’t lie to Foggy, even when he’d like the lie better than the truth. “I want to… I want you to own me completely, and I know you don’t want that, and I can’t ever have it anyway because of the Devil, but I still want it.”
Matt just blinked, his piece of shit morning culminating in that very moment. He should lie, didn’t want to worry the guy, let him in. but that pathetic, treacherous part of himself that wanted a hug and a lie down let the words slip from his mouth before he could stop them.
‘I was mugged.’
Double fuck. Matt didn’t even need to see to know the look Foggy was giving him.
你就是忍不住吧😆